When paying the bills gets in the way of my shopping
It�s near the end of the month and I find myself fantasising about all the new clothes, hair products and makeup I want to buy. This always happens to me when my funds are at their lowest but I can�t help it. I think it�s to do with the �want what you can�t have� element of human nature that taunts me with images of straight leg indigo wash Topshop jeans or soft cashmere jumpers from Marks & Spencer. Suddenly I notice that I also need a haircut and a better, more expensive moisturiser for my face.
I wait in anticipation for pay day, planning and writing lists of the things I need. Even watching my favourite film Into the Wild does not curb my desire for new, fashionable products. The desire to shop is so intense that it is giving me a headache and I plan for excuses that will allow me to escape work early and drive to the nearest shopping centre.
Alas I know that when pay day does finally come there are things that will have to take precedence over my want for sparkly shiny pretty things. Reality is the only thing that gets in the way of my daydreaming�and reality is a rather large and all consuming obstacle.
Envelopes are arriving through my door, brown and white official looking envelopes that contain the demands that drain my finances. I know I have to pay my gas and electric bills, my water bills, my rent, my TV licence and my internet bills but it still irks at me. The cost of living just seems so high sometimes. I feel as though that no sooner than I have been paid I have to pay out which leaves me with just about enough money for food and for going out a couple of nights a month. Of course I try to cut down on things like gas and electric for example, turning lights off when I leave a room and using candles in the evening. This not only saves money but really does create a nice cosy cost effective atmosphere. I also like to think that I am contributing to the �green cause� by energy saving. I try to go over to my mum�s house for dinner as much as possible and I very rarely cook long roasting food items for dinner.
My thoughts drift back to my shopping list and I start drooling over the �850 pair of Jimmy Choo Glenys Python Sandals that I have just laid eyes on in my magazine. On my budget I will probably go for something more like the Faith shoes version wittily named LEGALAXY.
I try to concentrate on work in an effort to stop taunting myself with pictures of items that will never be mine. I know that if I work hard I will eventually, one day be able to afford the items that I so covet along with far flung holidays to exotic locations and lots of expensive lotions and potions. Until then those brown and white envelopes are going to continue coming first.
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When paying the bills gets in the way of my shopping / Author: MarkeD
